Friday, September 24, 2004

Step towards you


A morning full of worries, A noon full of anxiety , how can i go on like this , how far can i go before breaking down , how deep can i hide all my cries, how long must i wait, before i take another step towards You.

An afternoon full of cold breeze, An evening full of light wind, Here i am again at Your throne of Grace, yearning to seek Your face, yearning to hear Your voice;

A night has yet to come, but all the work has started to pile up, seems like i am earning a second just to lose another minute , how long must i wait , before i take another step towards You.

A heart that is broken, shattered in pieces yet still was hold by the strings of pride, how am i supposed to feel, felt like i am not moving forward, yet not backwards either, keep on standing on what i had, never seeking out for more of You , how long must i wait , before i take another step towards You.

Yet, i know i am a prisoner that had been set free , Your love has opened up to door of life to me, but how LORD, how am i supposed to live , teach me to walk humbly with You, teach me to guard my heart above all things .. teach me to step towards You.

Another cup of coffee, just want to taste your sweetness again Lord, the sweetness beyond the bitterness of life , the sweetness of Your love.

hmm , i wrote this poem a few months ago,
yet part of it is still reflecting where i am at in my heart ,
anyways ...


Sunday, September 12, 2004

something about God's grace

here i am again, writing my blog at the beginning of another week,
last week was an "OK" week, there were some great stuff that happened in my life,
there were also some not so cool stuff that happened, anyways,
life is busy and that is for sure,
one question that i had on my mind was about God's grace vs Personal works + personal holiness,
and how one's personal holiness is important .. etc .. i was .. let's say .. confused over it .. so i asked God about it last nite .. and well .. this morning .. here's the verse my Pastor shared during his sermon, Titus 2:11-13 " For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men. It teaches us to say "No" to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age, while we wait for the blessed hope--the glorious appearing of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ, " .. He hit RIGHT on the target .. :-) .. it's BY and THRU God's grace that we can say "No" to un-godliness .. again .. BY and THRU God's grace .. not by our own plans or works .. well 1st if we are w/o GOD .. then any WORKS is dead .. .. , but then it's that GRACE that teaches us how to live this life .. :-) cool huh ..
well ... that's all i have,
i hope this coming week will be a good one,
and yeap i am doing a teaching in my bible study ...
don't quite sure what to teach yet .. anyways ..
maybe somewhere along the line of Legalism vs Lawlessnes vs Grace of God ...
check this sermon out by John Piper ..


Tuesday, September 07, 2004

another day

another day,
another tiring day,
seems like there's endless stuff to do every single day,
from homework to work to homegroup's stuff and then the social part of my life,
then of course, my spirituality too ....
i've been thinking about the "rest" that Jesus Christ was talking about
in the Bible .. the rest that God promised those who listened to Him,
that "rest" sounds REALLY good in a busy semester where i have to rush
from one event to another and another event to another ... while in between
events ... blasting off my speakers at my car or crib seems like the norm to help me
get my mind off a lot of stuff .. anyways .. (too much Top 40 music is not good either .. so
fan-friendly pop-ballard has slowly creep back into my world of music ... LOL .. stuff like
old LPs from Backstreetboys , NSync , Westlife , PlusOne .. etc) haha ...

anyways ..
another day lays ahead,
i gotta choose to live it,
or else it's gonna be another dead day of chasing and dragging.

gotta live for HIM,
gotta rest in HIM.


Saturday, September 04, 2004


1st week of school,
it's the dawning of another semester,
i seemed un-interested at some point .. to many things,
just got back from summer,
and now i felt like i need another break,
ha ...
don't know why,
i guess the 1st few weeks are always stressful because
there are so many things going on ....
well ..
guess i need to believe what Jesus said,
to go to Him for His yoke is light,
anyways ..
1 Peter 5:7
is my fav. verse and it's going to cont. to be my fav. verse,
i hope i truly come to realise the meaning of that verse.

~ tech.

well . A&M lost to Utah.
and umm .. i got 2 months of Free Napster from Bestbuy,
and i am liking it !